10 June 2008, haiz... din knw tat only when she in need of ESTHER and KAT or when there is trouble then look for me... im reali is a person full of SIN... why does she knw tat everytime she wan IT i feel vry bad... coz i find tat its my fault for LETTING HER and SHI touch tat type of STUFF... till nw they jux cant QUIT... why... i dun wan to see in such a state... if reali there is no choice i will MIA again... i think is better for HER and SHI bahz... i reali dun wan to be a SINNER anymore... everything can change but not my HEART... haiz... forget bahz... i rather be the ONE feeling PAIN... then letting others PAIN wif ME... and all the BEST to HER RELATIONSHIP...