08 Jan 2008, today actually plan to cook for my ZHU but in the end she say she go home had her dinner... =( but its ok at least i did try... wat a sudden i have a chat wif my last time SENIOR... he told me tat actually FATE n DESTINY can be change... unless all ur FRIEND n FAMILY willing to give u a second chance to change... if u willing to give up wat ur present life and change it... then u will had no regret when the times come for JUDGEMENT... and i tell my SENIOR... im always willing to give ppl chance to change but jux sometimes no one tend to care hw i feel... in the mouth say will change but in the heart still the same ... tat why there is tis sentence " a leopard will never change its spot" but im always hoping wat they promise to me will come true... but i dunno when will it be.... haiz.... my life now is SCUK... as im going to unlock wat the real me in my heart soon.... which i dun wan... but no choice... lolz.... hope tat those who knw me well wont misunderstand me can le....